I finally found myself
I tried to erase all this hate from my body
I tried to end all the lies, all the pain that I caused everyone
But it all seemed so fucking useless

I can’t forgive
And I can’t forget
Don’t you know who the fuck I am
I’m the enemy

I’ve lived a life of regret
I’ve had this burden of guilt suffocating
It’s time to shed this disguise
And it’s time to rise and destroy
Everyone in my fucking path

I can’t forgive
And I can’t forget
Don’t you know who the fuck I am
I’m the enemy

Take a good look at me
I’m your enemy

Don’t try to make amends
There’s just no need to pretend it will all be ok
You can try to run and you can try to hide
But it’s all fucking pointless

I can’t forgive
And I can’t forget
Don’t you know who the fuck I am
I’m the enemy

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Kindness is always the best way to help others but sometimes there's no other choice but to do bad deeds in order to bring out the goods that are dwelling inside of them. We might get hurt doing so but that just show how we care for them. For them to change. For them to improve their lives. I know im not in the position to do so. Sometimes you ought to break the rules, yes?

As the they say..

Measure the size of your palm before you do any good deeds to others

Welcome back home Buddy. Its been 6 months since you're away from the society. Haha you missed a lot i mean lot of things that are going on here but then your fortunate one, i say. Sorry we didn't give you the welcome party that you should deserved but hey we are glad to have you back here. Enjoy your stay. Happy return cousin.

Before i go i wanna leave a shout to another decemberian who is having her birthday today on the 7th of December.

HAPPY 19th BIRTDAY FIZAH HIPPO, YOUR NOW 19th WOMEN. GOD BLESS IN EVERYTHING YOU DO. HAVE A BLAST BIRTHDAY PARTY. WOHOO!! KAPISSH

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update update update!! haha this is what i get from my humble readers. Sorry for not updating for like 3 months? As usual im busy with stuff but this time its just getting heavier? heh life. Anyway lets get down to business.

3 months ago i discussed about beings call Jin. As i recalled there's a variety of symptoms if there's such beings lurking in our body but that does not mean they are really inside of you. Sometimes it's just a normal illness where medical support can be of assistance. To make sure if them, the Jins, are lurking inside, i recommend you to listen to Ruqyah Syarriyah. It is fine to go to other spiritual specialist but we never know what kind of mantra they'll be using. They might go against the teachings or they might not. So to make things easier, you can just listen/read to Ruqyah but under one condition, you must be fully "khusyuk"/concentrate or it won't work. well it depends on the Jin's willingness.

Ruqyah Syarriyah consists of 20 doa or mantra from the Holy Al-Quran. These 20 doa are as follows :

1. Al fatihah
2.Al-Baqarah 1-5
3.Al-Baqarah 102
4.Al-Baqarah 163-164
5.Al-Baqarah 255
6.Al-Baqarah 285-286
7.Al-Imran 18-19
8.Al-A'raf 54-56
9.Al-A'raf 117-122
10.Yunus 81-82
11.Tho-Ha 69
12.Al-Mukminun 115-118
13.Ash-Shaaffaat 1-10
14.Al-Ahqaaf 29-32
15.Ar-Rahman 33-36
16.Al-hasyr 21-24
17.Jin 1-9
18.Al-Ikhlas
19.Al-Falaq
20.An-Naas

These are all the doa that you guys should listen to but a quick reminder here. Don't try to ever listen to it when there's no specialist around because if you got positive reactions from it, who knows what you will do. It can be life-treat threatening. So don't ever try to attempt it by yourself. Unless you have the will to do so, all & all, it's at your own risk.

I'll stop here. Sorry not much of details there. Can't think much. haha. Yosh. Kapisssh.