I've given up on giving up slowly, i'm blending in so you won't even know me apart from this whole world that share my fate.

This one bullet you mention is one last shot for my redemption because i know to live you must give your life away.

And i've been housing all this doubt & insecurity & i've been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key.

And i've been dying to get out & that might the death of me. Eventhough there's no way im knowing where to go.

Promise i'm going because i gotta get outta here & i'm begging you, i'm begging you..

I'm begging you to be my escape.

I'm giving up on doing this alone now cause i've failed & i'm ready to shown how. She told me the way & i'm trying to get there.

And this life sentence that i'm serving. I admit i'm every bit deserving but the beauty grace is that makes life not fair.

I am a hostage to my own humanity. Self detained & forced to live in this mess that i've made.

All I'm asking is for you to do what you can with me but i can't ask you to give what you already give.

I've stuck inside this hut that i fell into mistake. I've gotta get outta here & i'm begging you, i'm begging you..

I'm begging you to be my escape x)

kapissh readers. Oh & WinterThird, Aten, nyaha you owe me something. Wuu. See you at the rugby match baby. If i'm able that is. Bubyee.

Labels: Rugby, Very random, WinterThird

Its 12 midnight.

Seven more hours till the lower six students will start their first day of school. Congratulations to those who get their shot for the A lvl course btw (: ah yes, jealous much. I dream.. I dream that i'll be in sixth form this year & escape from this humilating enviroment of mine but then again, i guess God decided not to end it just yet huh? (:

I just can imagined how sixth form enviroment would be with us, PCA, around. Us, sitting all together like old times at the canteen. Laughing, panat-ing, annoyed each other with individual jokes. Heh. sigh. I guess that would never happend ney? It WILL happend but without me in it (':

Sometimes i even wonder to myself, why i never always achvied my dreams? Why i always being the one who got left out? Why am i always being the one who is always being the stupidest among all of them after all of those hard work that i've done? WHY AM I SUCH A FUCKING FAILURE IN ALL THINGS?! (': sigh..

All of this.. Despite all of this.. I may still be here in the dark but someday.. someday.. i'll find the light & that light will be my escape (':

I'm sorry readers, moment of depression there. Dont mind me. I just wanna let things out. Hee. Goodnight. Kapish for now.

Labels: depress, Random

Really bored at the moment... so saja2 blog

Right, today's story. Went out with Nurul. Cruising around Gadong, had an awesome time. Bila lagi buleh go out? haha

I'm blogging using Aten's laptop at the moment, too lazy to use my phone. Those small keypads make me go nuts, siuk lagi pakai laptop. Heee random much?. Played some DDR tadi, naleh ku eh. Go Aten! Expert bah ank atu main, aku ani dui basic jua gnya :'(

Out for now, gonna go home soon. I'll blog some other time then.

Kapishhh for now readers.

Labels: Random, very random...

Its 10.25pm

Currently panat-ing with my cuzey. Haha. I have got to admit it though. I feel a lil bit akward since all of them got through their 'A' & 'O' lvl exams :) i'm waaay out of their league already. Envy them much. You know this heart of mind always telling me not to give up evnthough im still here, in the darkness. So yeah, thats what i'm going to do. I'll keep on searching the light but that doesnt changed the fact how i felt at this very moment (:

Goodnight people. Lots of things to do tomorrow. Oh & Aten you owe me a DDR. Hee. See you at the Rugby match tomorrow. Kapishh.

Labels: Random

HAPPY 4TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO WINTERAUTUMN'S STORY

Its the 21st of January. Nothing intresting happend today. Woke up at 6. Took my shower. Ate my breakfast & went straight to Nurul's place because we wanted to discuss about our plan. Yes, at 6 plus in the morning people. Haha had to prepare all the stuff that are needed for the meeting. We waited for the others to come & they were late! We waited for 3 hours. Damn it! Haha anyway while we were at it, Nurul taught me how to play DDR. I know how to play it thought but not as good as them, Aten & Nurul. Seriously, they are expert at it. Shake that booty baby. Hahaha.

Okay okay lets skip that part. Haha. By 8 both Freedy & Niski came. At last! I wonder what you guys been up to ey? *wondering* & they were followed by Nazeem & Shikin. We started our meeting as soon as the other group arrived. The meeting lasted for only an hour though. I dont know wheather its a meeting or what. Too much laughing & panat-ing. Haha. But what the heck i enjoy it xD

Went home at 1. Lay down on my bed & here i am, blogging while watching Hakeem played Call of Duty 4.

Alright. I have to ready my things. Got bstbll practice soon. Good day readers.

P/S, Do we need that much for a model, Nurul? haha.

Labels: Anniversary, DDR, Random

Hello again my humble readers. Sorry, that i didnt blog again for this past 3 days. I've been busy again playing video games! & i just finished playing Mass Effect. It took me two days to finish this game up, that, explain why again i didnt write anything here for the past 3 days. Anyway, i like the ending to this game. We have to make a choice to determine the storyline ending. Each with its own badass ending baby *thumbs up* but sadly this game, Mass Effect doesnt end just there. I guess you gamers out there know what it means, yes? It means that the game hasn't written its offcially ending just yet!, the saga will be continued in Mass Effect 2! Which has yet been confirm when its release will be. Damn it *snaps* oh well, i'll just have two wait then.

For the time being i wanted to play my newly bought rugby game! Yes, a rugby game. I always wanted to play this rising rugby since its release. Hee, Oh oh speaking of rugby, last Friday, 15 January 2008, PTE'S RUGBY TEAM, THE PTE SIXERS WON THEIR 1ST MATCH OF THE SEASON! WOHOO! haha. All credits to Saffuan who carried the team all the way towards the end. Not to mention the supporters that they had lead by the Red hair hot loud senorita mamamiya, Ateeen. Now i know why they choose you as a paintball marshal, Aten. You are loud senoritaa. Haha nevertheless, they played their role perfectly. So err half credits for them as well. Hehehe.

& its 3.24 in the morning. Time to hit the bed. Got lot of things to do tomorrow which is today *yawn* goodnight readers. Kapishhhh. Up up and awaaaaay *trbng nth kmna*

Labels: Random, Rugby, v.games

I'm baaaaack people. Its been a while ney? Been busy playing my newly game console, xbox360. Haha. I know i know i should have bought Playstation 3 since it's only $625 but the disc.. they sold it over $100+ per disc. I cant afford to buy the disc each week! my pockets might go empty at the end of the month!, if i buy playstation 3 that is.

Nothing much happend today. Picked up Fizah at PTE this afternoon & man it was packed with lots of cars! & chicks baby *drools* tehehe. ANYWAY, I can't even imagined how it would look like when their juniors come in, we'll be surely hearing cars horning everywhere ey? Ouh ouh i saw Amal & her dad went by pass us. She didnt regonised us though *hits c Amal* Probably because of the car, she would have notice it though if i drive my dad's Blue Vanila sky car. Yes, that car has a goofy name. Aten is the one who gave that name. Ehe nevertheless it suits with the car's blue paint, yes? Hahaha.

Went home by 3 then soon after that we went to the near store but this time Fizah is the one who is driving & maaaan, it was one hell of a ride. Believe me, when she's the one sitting on the driver seat, you should quickly buckle up your ass & phone your family that you love them.Tehehe, Luckily we all went back a piece though. THANK GOD. If you're reading this i'm ready to kick your arse WOMAN, bring it on. Hahaha.

*yawn* damn it. Mars calling. Speaking of Mars, heard Mars rotation changed into the clockwise direction. It should be the other way round, anti-clockwise. Hmm too many sign had been shown lately. The end is probably just around the corner. Oh well, we'll just have to see what will happend in the near future, yes?

Goodnight readers oh & Happy Birthday to si gigiran Amal PEEK A BOO! Wowee.

Labels: birthday, Random