Back. It's been a while people.. Again. Lots of things been going lately. War i tell you. Probably the worst. Why it all always came down to me. Hmm maybe God wanted to see me how i handle things ney? Pffft. Trial, trial, trial.

Sometimes i wanted to die so badly. EMO ALERT PEOPLE. seriously, yes, i want it so much. There this one time when i found out that i didn't qualified for something. I get so fucked up. I keep on staring the kitchen's knife. Haha.

There this tiny people in my head, a devil i might add. He always whispered to my ear 'Go ahead, do it. There's nothing you can do anymore. You are just a garbage'. Yes, people i'm thinking to cut my wrist & bah! Be gone. Hahaha but then there this flying tiny people which is in my head as well. He said 'NOO, don't do it. You know where you will end up to if u do that. There is still a chances. Don't give up. GOD take away things, so that GOD can give u something better'

I decided not to do it. Hah. I can't barely take the consequences. I am not that stupid. Ahaha. If commiting one suicide is not a sin. Believe me, I WILL DO IT without giving me a second thought but there is always a rule. So yeah, i just let GOD decide. Pfft. I am not a EMO PERSON, mind you.

It's just that when there is so much problems. Things that you cannot handle inside that tiny head of yours. Trust me, you'll be in that zone. So much pressure till you can't hold no more. Emmm.

Alright got to go. The sands and ocean are waiting. Night people.
Kapishh for now.

p/s ; Aten, you still owe me something. Haha. Alolo. I miss you xp

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